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  She thought about the Irina downstairs. If she brought a scribe in, they’d leave her without a backward glance. “I can’t tell you that.”

  “Damn it, Reni. All I want—”

  “I’m in the middle of something,” she said. “I’m with good people. Competent people. That’s all I can give you.”

  “You’re never willing to give me much, are you?” His voice was bitter. “I suppose I should be used to that by now.”

  She’d be angry, but his grief was too raw. “Is Leo with you?” He’d told her about his family, even when she tried to ignore him. It was too much intimacy, but Max told her anyway. “Is Malachi? Rhys?” A tremor of alarm. “Are your brothers all right?”

  “It wasn’t one of my brothers,” Max said, his voice going dead again. “It was a friend. I should let you go. You’re busy.”

  “Max, I’m—”

  He hung up.

  “Sorry,” she whispered. I’m sorry.

  Vienna, Austria

  2014

  Someone was pounding on the door of the rented flat, and she knew it could only be Max. He’d left his key with her. She went to open the door and backed out of his way as he stormed in.

  “‘I’ll see you when I see you?’” he shouted. “What was that, Renata?”

  She closed her eyes and let his anger smash and fall against the hard wall she’d erected. Then she walked back to the bedroom and continued packing her things.

  She’d been in Vienna too long.

  The Battle of Vienna would be one to write songs about. If she were still an archivist, she’d already be composing one. The battle of the four archangels, two of them sacrificing themselves in a grand attempt at redemption while giving the Irin and Irina warriors time to fight back the army of Grigori that flooded the city, joined by their new allies, the free Grigori and their newly discovered sisters.

  It would be a beautiful and frightening song. Threaded between the grand battles, Renata could sing a softer harmony of quiet nights and peaceful mornings spent with the scribe currently storming through the apartment.

  Max stood in the doorway of the bedroom they’d shared, glaring at her and the suitcase on the bed.

  “This is it?” he asked her. “This is what you’re doing?”

  “What did you expect me to do?” she asked. “Run away to Istanbul with you? Leave my life behind?”

  “Everything has changed!” he shouted. “The Irina have come back. The singers’ council has reformed. You don’t have to hide anymore.”

  Her mouth fell open. “You did. You expected me to abandon my sisters and run away to be your little mate.”

  Max grabbed her shoulders. “Would that be so awful? To be my mate? To have a life with me?”

  She wrenched herself away from him. “You know nothing.”

  “You’re right.” He slammed the bedroom door shut. “Because you refuse to tell me. It’s been fifteen years, Renata. I don’t even know where you were born. I don’t know who your parents were. I don’t know what your training was. I don’t know anything about your life before every damn thing in our world went to shit.”

  She ignored him and went back to packing.

  “Who was your mother?” He stood behind her, looking over her shoulder. “What was her name? I’ve told you everything, and you tell me nothing. Who was your father? What is the mark on your forehead? Does it have something to do with who you were?”

  “You want to know who I was?” She slammed her suitcase and spun around, shoving him back.

  “Yes!”

  “I was a fool!” she shouted. “I was a little girl who sang songs about history and magic and thought they meant something. I was a weakling who thought that a mountain and the warrior I loved could protect me from anything.”

  She saw his eyes narrow.

  “Did you think there was only you, Maxim?” She pointed to her forehead where Balien’s mark still shone when her magic was high. “I was supposed to be mated. That’s what this mark is.”

  There. She saw the hurt in his eyes. Is that enough knowledge for you?

  “You know what?” he said through gritted teeth. “I don’t care. You’re lying to yourself if you say we don’t have a relationship. We’re good together, Renata. Hell, we have the exact same job. There’s no reason we shouldn’t work together. We make the perfect team.”

  He was right. And she couldn’t do it. She couldn’t do it to him. Deep in her gut, she knew that one day Max would find his reshon and it wouldn’t be her. He’d find the woman heaven had created for him and it would be perfect harmony. He deserved that. He deserved more than a half-dead woman whose heart had been ripped from her chest.

  For months she’d used the excuse of them working together to indulge herself. She’d slept next to him at night, fought by his side, laughed and eaten meals with him, pretending that what they had could be something more.

  How could she say goodbye?

  She felt the tears in her eyes and hated them. Hated her weakness.

  Max came to her and grabbed her by the shoulders. “Just tell me why. I’m tired of this, Reni. I’m done pretending it’s enough. I want more. I want a life together. I’d never leave you in Istanbul. Why would I? I want you to fight beside me. I love—”

  “Don’t tell me you love me,” she said, squeezing her eyes shut. “You don’t know what love is.”

  His hands dropped as if she’d burned them.

  “The warrior I almost mated? His name was Balien of Damascus. He was a great man. A warrior who fought in the Crusades. He was a knight of Jerusalem, a Rafaene scribe, and my reshon. We knew the moment we saw each other, and his voice…?” She wiped away the tears that poured down her cheeks. “He was the other half of my soul. Loving him was the most beautiful thing in my life, and no other joy has ever compared to it. He gave his life saving mine.”

  Max was like a statue. She couldn’t meet his eyes. She felt nothing from him. No anger. No pain. She kept her shields clamped shut, afraid to hear the voice of his soul.

  “You’re going to find that joy someday,” she whispered. “And you deserve to. You’re going to find your reshon, Maxim. Find your true mate.” She took a deep breath and cut the last delicate ties holding them together. “But it’s not going to be me. You’re right. We should stop pretending.”

  By the time Renata looked up, all she could see was his back as Max walked out the door.

  Chapter Four

  Ciasa Fatima, 2017

  Max stroked his fingers through Renata’s hair, glancing at the dying embers of the fire as a cold morning sun breached the windows. It had snowed during the night, and only a sliver of daylight remained visible on the first floor. He’d have to get up and stoke the fire, but not until she woke. Renata lay against him, her body a warm and welcome weight against his chest. His arm was numb and he didn’t care. She was sleeping in his arms, which meant he could stare at her. He hadn’t had the privilege in nearly three years.

  Renata let out a sigh as her eyes fluttered open.

  “Good morning,” he whispered.

  She frowned for a second before she closed her eyes again and rolled to face the fire.

  “It wasn’t a dream,” she muttered.

  “Were you hoping it was?” Max asked. “I have to tell you, in my dreams, we’re usually wearing less clothes.”

  “You need to leave today.”

  He pulled her back to his chest. “There’s probably six feet of new snow out there. I’m not going anywhere. Neither are you. It’s a good thing you’ve stored food in the kitchen.”

  She said nothing.

  “Hey, Reni?” He kissed the top of her head. “How long has it been since we’ve seen each other?”

  “Two years and ten months.”

  He smiled. And four days. “Do you know something?”

  “I know lots of things,” she said.

  “It’s been two years, ten months, and four days since you left me.”

  “You l
eft me.”

  “You were packing your bags when I walked out the door, and you weren’t there when I got back.” He was getting off track. “That was two years, ten months, and four days ago.”

  “And?”

  “I still haven’t met my reshon.”

  She shoved his arm from around her waist and stood.

  “What?” He watched her reach for her robe and wrap it around herself like armor. “I just thought I’d let you know.”

  “Do you think you’re funny?”

  “No, I don’t think I’m funny,” he said. “I think I’m pissed off.”

  “Then why did you come?”

  He let out a long breath. Why had he come?

  “I told myself when I was walking up here—when I thought my toes might fall off from the cold—I didn’t know if I was trying to find you for wanting or sheer obstinacy.”

  Renata was standing at the window, staring out into the blue wall of snow.

  That’s right. You’re not getting rid of me so easily this time.

  He looked around at the carved rafters and expertly stacked stone hearth. The house was plain from the outside but stunning within. “How old is this place?”

  “The house?” Renata walked away from the window and sat in a wooden rocking chair by the hearth. “I don’t know. It was here when I was born, so at least three hundred years, but it’s been rebuilt over the years. Things were added on here and there. There are eight bedrooms upstairs, so you’re welcome to prepare one for yourself if you like. Mine and the living room are the warmest though, so if I were you, I’d continue sleeping down here.”

  He’d be sleeping in her bedroom, but that discussion could wait. “This was your family’s home?”

  She shook her head, but she still wasn’t looking at him. “It didn’t belong to us. Not exactly. I’m sure the council has forgotten about it at this point. I’ve made sure the name on the deed is mine. They can’t take it now.” She turned. “I’m sure you’re thinking they wouldn’t be interested in a house this remote, but it’s not the house they’d want. It’s the caves.”

  Max sat up and leaned against the sofa. “I wondered if there were caves when I saw how the house was built.”

  “The caves are the only reason this house—this whole compound—ever existed. I don’t know how old they are, but my mother told me they were created by very powerful earth singers centuries ago.”

  “Why?”

  “To store the scrolls.”

  Understanding dawned. “This was a library.”

  Renata stood and grabbed wood for the fire, placing it on the glowing embers along with some kindling. “This was a library. A unique library. Ciasa Fatima was one of the few combined libraries in the world.”

  Max didn’t say anything. For the first time since he’d known her, Renata was willingly sharing her past. It was as if she’d opened a jewel box and handed him rubies. He didn’t want to say anything that might make her clam up.

  “My mother came first. She apprenticed with the oldest singer in the mountains, the archivist here for hundreds of years. My father was a visiting scribe studying the history of Ariel’s children in Europe. He came here, met my mother, and never left.”

  She fell silent, watching the fire light and grow.

  “Did you have any siblings?” Max asked.

  “No. Neither did my parents. It was just the three of us.” She looked around the living room. “But it was never just the three of us, you know?”

  He didn’t know. Max hadn’t been raised in any kind of home. He’d been surrounded by warriors and hard men his entire life. The first time he’d lived in anything that resembled a home was when his brother Malachi had brought his new mate, Ava, to the scribe house in Istanbul. That was only a few years before.

  “Eight bedrooms,” Max said. “There must have been many visitors.”

  She nodded. “It was the way of libraries in the old days. People were always moving in and out. A scribe and his family would come to study for a few years, then move on. A singer and her mate would visit for a few months. A few families, like mine, were based here and rarely left. My father insisted there always be at least one room open to shelter someone new, which is why so many bedrooms were added over the years. There are even caves in the library that were added for Rafaene scribes who were on respite.”

  The picture she painted was of a haven, a safe and peaceful place of learning and hospitality. Max could guess what had happened when the Rending reached them.

  “So there were only academics here when it happened,” he said quietly. Where had her warrior reshon been?

  Renata was still staring at the fire. “Do you want to see the caves?”

  “Am I a scribe?”

  Renata let the edge of a smile touch her lips. “I don’t know. I don’t think I’ve ever seen you with books.”

  “I adore them.” His love for the written word was surpassed only by his love for those in his very small family. “I simply don’t get the opportunity to indulge very often the way I travel.”

  She stood. “Wrap up. There are wool things in the closet down the hall. Most people aren’t prepared for how cold it gets at night, so I always keep extra wraps. The caves will be chilly.”

  He nodded and watched her walk up the stairs to her bedroom. His eyes were caught by the sunlight glinting on the fresh snow. Unless it stormed again, he estimated three days before the trail was passable. Renata was as stubborn a woman as heaven had ever created.

  Max had three days to change her mind.

  The large living area narrowed to a hallway that led to several locked rooms, a cozy music room with instruments hanging on the walls—including a finely carved guitar Max itched to play—and the downstairs washroom. As promised, there was running water, but the taps were cold. He’d have to boil water for a bath later. Renata led him past the wood-paneled hallway and beyond a heavy oak door.

  “The renters don’t get access to the caves,” she said.

  “Do they ask?”

  “Most don’t. If they do, the manager tells them it’s storage.”

  An ancient iron lock hung on the door. Renata unlocked it and pulled the door open. Max could feel the temperature drop the moment they stepped through. His breath frosted in the air as Renata shut the heavy door and handed him a lamp. He lit it and held it high. There were torches affixed to the walls. Renata walked to them and whispered something. One by one, the torches lit and a smooth passageway of polished rock was revealed.

  “It gets warmer once you go deeper into the mountain,” Renata said as they walked. “There are thermal springs. If I keep the door open, the house will heat this hallway, but it seems like a waste of energy most of the time.”

  Max ran his hands across the polished limestone in the tunnel. “Are there any scrolls left?”

  “No. There is still magic in the caves though. The spells carved on the rocks weren’t defaced. They were cut too deeply. I doubt the Grigori knew what they were to begin with.”

  As they walked, Max began to see the magic scribes had cut into the rock. Like the ritual room in Istanbul, the carved words in the Old Language were familiar, though the style of the writing was not. Max recognized spells meant to protect the caves and the knowledge within. Saw other, more practical spells, to ward off humidity, cold, and ice. He felt the passage grow warmer, but the air remained fresh and dry.

  “Ventilation?” he asked.

  “Extensive,” Renata answered. “The caves probably took centuries to perfect. Even today, if you wanted to live in them, they wouldn’t be uncomfortable. Chilly, but not freezing. The Irina builders used the air from the thermal springs to heat the rooms but allowed enough ventilation that the library never became too damp.”

  “Amazing.”

  “Yes.” She opened another heavy door, this one wasn’t locked, and lifted her lamp high. Then Renata walked to the center of the room, took a box of matches from her pocket, and lit a central hearth. Within sec
onds, the fire and a series of mirrors along the walls lit the room with a warm gold glow.

  Max turned, taking it all in. It was a round cave with deep alcoves cut to hold scrolls and for storage. Wooden bookshelves had been made to line the walls, but they lay empty save for a few volumes that looked more human-made than Irin. Heavy wooden scribe tables sat empty, their inkwells long dry. A light coating of dust marked the benches and chairs. A well-worn sofa and reading chairs sat near the hearth.

  “Who keeps it?” Max asked. The room was deserted, but it wasn’t a wreck.

  “Me.” She walked around the room. “We didn’t have time right after, but eventually Mala and I came back here and she helped me. I burned most everything that was left.”

  Max tried to imagine what it must have been like, clearing out the wreckage of a home and the remains of her dead community. Though their dead turned to dust, Irin still bled. There would have been blood and empty clothing. Furniture would have been wrecked and broken. Food left to spoil. Animal remains. She had cleared out the wreckage of a destroyed home with the help of a single friend. Max would have to remember to kiss Mala in gratitude the next time he saw her. She’d probably stab him, but that was fine.

  Renata walked back to an arched hallway, taking her lamp with her. Max followed her as she pointed out different rooms. Storage. Humble sleeping quarters for Rafaene scribes. A playroom for the children. A ritual room where the sacred fire would have been tended before it had been snuffed out by violence.

  “The caves were probably where the first Irin lived,” Renata said. “Long before the house was built. Look at this.” She entered a large alcove with intricately carved designs decorating it and turned to face Max with a smile. “Go back to the reading room.”

  He raised an eyebrow but turned and did what she said.

  When he arrived, he turned. “I’m here!” he shouted.

  “Can you hear me?” Her voice was soft. She hadn’t shouted, but the sound had carried to every corner of the reading room.

  “I can.” He spun around the room with a smile. It was as if the sound of her voice surrounded him. “What is it? Speaking tubes?”